Wednesday, May 6, 2015

I am writing this to remember today in its full magnificence.
My day started early as I am an options Trader as well as Clairvoyant.  The market seemed brutal and both of my option positions were suffering  from whiplash in the wrong direction which was not benefiting me. I stopped and suddenly remembered my Charlemagne There is magic everywhere, Any and all events are an extension of blessings of my life and are always and have always been for my highest good I reminded myself.

As the day rolled out like a pastry waiting for the filling so many miracles happened that caused me to write this.
These events I am about to reveal are the icing on this souls cake and I am writing for you to find yours as well. In short, my heart created this , weeks, lifetimes ago.. but today, well it all was a symphony.
We had concerns about a member's caliber and ethics in our meetup group so the core members were "phone tree" requested for resolution a week prior . We contacted the member and asked him to  meet with him at Sound Ground on Belmont. This is important to remember > Sound Ground Cafe
The dripping facet had to stop. He refused to meet with us but we went and discussed anyway.

I was a little stressed but determined to remove the member from my meetup group as all I could reflect on was the precious time, the MOMENTS we have here and how I simply refused to allow this disruptive , unethical and time thief member to stop stealing away my time and the core members time. All core members were guilty of what we call in Buddhism " foolish compassion". We wanted to  help the guy but it just could not continue to drain us. This had to be  done with tolerance, discernment and compassion.

I knew what I had to do, He needed to be removed and I took immediate action. How could I explain to the core members that I took action without their consent? I had faith that once I presented my case I would still be loved and not regarded a dictator. Then I heard it " remove him immediately ! I was running late but had to follow my inner voice. Click .. remove member.. confirm . Done.
Obvious Miracle # 1
I do readings on alternate Tuesdays at New Renaissance Book Store .When I arrived at New Renaissance book store  I had the most delightful clients ( I love my clients, I do )  . I later confessed to my friend that I trust and adore as my own friend ,daughter, family what I had done. Since she was in management she had many stories to share, with not names or details of course to encourage me I had done the right thing. I felt better about what I did and explained that I had to protect members from this kind of violations.  I was grateful for her help. As I was speaking I turned behind me and low and behold the very member I was seeking to protect from the unethical one  was right there next to me and had heard most of what I had said.
I literally jumped for joy at seeing her. Like two little girls in a playground over joyed to see each other.
I  adore this woman. I grabbed her hands with so much joy  and took her into my reading room. I explained how grateful I was she was there and the action I took to protect her and the other members.
 She was loving and compassionate ,
She regretted he was being removed but thanked me and made me feel so good about what I did.

Obvious Miracle #2

I love shopping at New Renaissance so I took a break and went downstairs. If there is one place you will usually find me,anywhere there is essential oils. I was whiffing when I ran into Dr. Rachel. She is wonderful, literally a beautiful soul inside and out. I hugged her like family as it felt like that. I had attended her event 2 weeks ago at her office but had forgotten where I had gone for her Essential oil demo.Somewhere on Belmont Street.

Obvious Miracle #3
At the end of  my shift at New Ren I purchased my Sandalwood and Lord Ganesh necklace I fancied . I headed to the coffee shop to meet with core members. I arrived and we discussed openly with our sentiments about what happened. We reached a loving consensus. It was wise to remove this member. As I ordered my Maca tea I felt a little errie and so comforted. I read the auric field, with his permission of course, of our server. As he and I spoke and the other core group members chatted amoungst themselves I said I wanted to buy the building. Then one of our core members chimed in and said there was an upstairs and that Dr. Rachel had her office upstairs. OMG OMG I had just seen her at New Renn, She rarely visits New Ren as she lives far away.  WOW !!! There I was where I had been 2 weeks prior sampling essential oils at my awesome new friends office Dr. Rachel.

If I ever have any doubt I will read this to remind myself that miracles happen everyday, I just must be open to receive. Oh yes the oil I used and splashed all over is Valentina's Protection oil. The Patchouli in it years ago made me walk away from others. This time it was kind of saving me actually. Joseph Campbell says " The Cave you refuse to enter holds the treasure you seek."The Patchouli oil in the Protection formula was protecting me  raising my fortune frequency. It seemed to trigger miracles upon miracle and in the past was not one of my favorite oils.

Monday, August 25, 2014

Dating Sites: Be yourself...always

Hello my beloved fans, I am writing about my response today on a dating site.
I seriously have been so happy on my own that a dating site sounds so unnecessary. But, honestly I am seriously too busy saving the world and myself to do this alone anymore.

See, I do dress up when I need to, I do wear lovely jeans as well as I move about life very quickly. True I love Vintage. However, vintage clothing certainly will not work when you are are fishing or hiking or walking through IKea so you do not wind up asleep on their cushy comfortable , plush bed and covers.. LOL

Actually , you know yesterday I went to plan my life out at IKEA. I love , love that store. You can dream and plan and actually afford to buy many things to brighten , lighten or enhance every aspect of your life, every sense you have of color, smell , feel (cushy, plushy comforters ), curtains that make the sun coming in your windows even more amazing . You get the picha. You can only hit a target if you have one.

Now for the dating site response which is the total truth of what I really like. I must say I really want to get off of this dating site as it is very time consuming. I mean surely I will invest the time into my honey, just not all these guys who are distracting. And there are many.

I will share a story of only two and will omit their names out of respect but they will know who they are. I call it the "I have got the King Arthur, Lancelot syndrome "in a bad way.  I mean both of these guys have stirred in my soul what I cannot as of yet tell them. Neither has to worry about the passion issue. That is not up for discussion. See, I am Latina, Puerto Rican to be exact and we have no issue in this regard hahahaha. We do not talk this, we do this. The French are the same , the Spaniards and Italians the same. I happen to be all of them.

Ok , I promise to get to what I said. I am a little scared of one. he knew exactly what I loved, even said he loved Sinatra, Glen Miller and Artie Shaw. How is it possible we love the same things? How did he know that about me? Is he really who he says he is? Is he a spy who found out about me? For Gods sake is he a hacker? Is he just the right kind of love I should runaway from or run to and never look back? I think he may be Lancelot...maybe..If he is both Arthur and Lancelot then we will live happily ever after. Willy Wonka said it: What happens to the man who gets everything he wants? ...He lives happily ever after.

Sure coincidences happen, but all three his and my favorites? Frank Sinatra, Artie Shaw , Glen Miller? Either this is a match made in heaven and I will gladly surrender..or maybe I should run away? I want to run to you.

The other OMG , he makes me laugh, I love to laugh. I love his brilliant mind. I think he is like Robin Williams a little. What scare me if he is like Robin and hurts himself I will never ever be happy with mood swings or his sadness. It is so foreign to me.. Like a foreign country.  I would miss him so much. Mood swings , or depression are serious concerns I am not sure I am ready or choose to commit to. Push him away ? No. I enjoy him to much. Commit to? Hmm I would have to feel  it. I am inspired to write again. He is brilliant. Every time he reaches out I can feel it.

Ok you ready? Here is my response to "what are you like, tell me about yourself. " For God and country , may the best man win. I would rather be nimble AND nibble on  your ears and play with you than continue this dating site things. But plants have to grow undisturbed, not rushed. I guess that is why this dating site thing may work.

What I said:
(Name omitted) you asked so I am going to break the man woman code of conduct here. I am actually going to answer your question. Please answer as well. Take your time. 

About me: Well Sir , I am certain many will apply with amazing skills all lovely of course competing for your time. But the Lady that will stand out , that truly listens and "gets who you are deep down" well that would be me. 

However, out of the many only one with the heart of gold, precious soul memory and impeccable taste will stand out . You can cry to this one and she will guard you like a fierce lion and protect you more than you can imagine, more than you protect yourself.

Unlike others she loves daffodils instead of roses (white being the exception). Hummingbirds instead of designer clothes which she does wear very nicely to the Opera, plays or chamber music. When not fussing with her hair she is fishing, hiking or creating a very lucrative business helping others, very likely children. But she walks away from all that money helping others to do what she loves. She has learned that happiness starts with her. Doing things alone is spectacular, doing things to pamper her soul and her man fills her world with joy. 

Simple, love this one. Give her the freedom she must have. Let her write because her sweet self must do so and she does it well. Feed her when she has her frenzies, guide her. She is a woman child who will protect your mind, your soul and kiss you openly, frequently passionate everyday. Once she loves you, you can be assured only your lips will touch hers. 

As she drives by the gift shop where you saw an item you loved she stops at the shop. Speaks to the owner and has it delivered to your office with a big kiss on the card which says " I love you Papa, " I am grateful for you. Becitos. 

This particular candidate mediates every morning. Reads, plans her day. Goes to the gym, does yoga. She then runs her business. As a visionary with amazing ideas she must be guarded, guided. 
She nibbles on your ear, and strokes your face, clasping gently to be forgiven for being mischievous. You look into her eyes and laugh, then forgive her for the millionth time because she makes you laugh, smile you can bare your soul to her and feel safe. No one smells like her, taste like her, makes you feel important.. Just her.

Saturday, June 14, 2014


"The End is only the beginning"
So many ways to think on this. You can cross over the border, cross over to a better way of life, cross over to high tech items like from pc to apple , cross over to a new gender, across the river and the list can be endless.
This will be a series of post and today are what I have observed while in Arizona. 

I was driving super early in Mesa and Tempe Arizona when I spotted men of I presumed Mexican origin waiting at the home depot. It was about 4:30 am. I wondered if the shift started so early and why they were waiting outside. I was used to all night internet cafes where I wrote for hours on end. 

When I got home I wondered what they were all doing outside at this hour. The next few weeks were a mind opener for me as my new job as leasing manager would answer all these  questions.

The " stop everybody that "looks Latino new law in Arizona " and make sure all, the green cards are legal class I had to take led me down a path I will always treasure.
It was my first month as leasing manager. I had many apartments to rent. I had a very nice Mulata lady from Vera Cruz Mexico and her light skinned man who wanted to rent an apartment from me. I noticed her green card was fake , and her man's card also was fake as the left ear was not showing, he was facing straight on. This was my first experience at this. I stared at Elisa and I knew she knew I had discovered her false ID.  

I asked her why she wanted to rent here.She said she had just gotten a job to send money for the care of her kids in Mexico , that she was going to send them money. She described how hard it was to get work there. I knew she had a story, a good one, that I could learn from. I asked her to meet me at my apt on the grounds after work. As she was leaving I noticed she had a limp and a scar on her ankle . In Arizona it is hot , most of us wear sandals. She later described why she had her scar and her limp.

It was 6:30pm  time to call it a day. When I arrived at my porch in front of my apt. she was waiting. It was very hot out and I got her some water and we sat like  two ladies should, on a nice cool porch. 
I asked her to tell me her story. 

Elisa : " I have crossed the border six times. Every time I was found and sent back. This time I got this far. But it was not easy. This last time as I crossed over we were about to get caught again. We all ran as we heard guns going off. So I ran so much I fell .  I cut my ankle badly and all I could think of was who was going to care for my babies if they killed me. I kept running. I wanted to help my children and I had no one except my mom who was up in age to care for them. There were no jobs in my village. I have a good job now , my boyfriend has a good job but he is sleeping on someones sofa as we do not have a place of our own."

I listened to all she said and felt her truth in it. So I suggested since I was leaving that she speak with one of my neighbors who lived next door to me.  I said I was moving to Texas with my man that she and her man could possibly get my apartment when I  left until then she could  stay with me. I could then ask if we could transfer my apt into her and her man's name . She was so happy . 

The following week she came over and we moved her and her boyfriend to my living room. That night she made us all supper with home made tortillas. The following morning I awoke early and as I showered I could hear her in the kitchen . She had gotten up early to make my food  for breakfast. When I got dressed there was a nice home cooked meal on my table.I was so pleased. She asked me to please come home for lunch as she had a special treat.

I came home for lunch and there again was a delicious feast. I had heard that in gratitude and her customs this was the way family treated each other. Later that day I asked her if she wanted to go shopping at the thrift store with me. She said yes and off we went like two sisters shopping. This scene repeated over and over for a few months. She had explained to me that the men waiting in line so early in the morning were waiting to be picked up for work . That many have families like she did back home. 
I started to think of all the people I had passed by with signs asking for money, food or shelter. Not one of them was Mexican. I started to feel again  as if some of the stereotypes were unfair.

And I wanted to help the children who arrived because I can now understand they will work, they will appreciate and they will not be out there with signs. But mostly because they are children who need love and to be safe. 

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

I wrote this in 2006, in a trance..Yes I am Trance writer wow I love my own stuff...LOL

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Every issue that you have exists because your subconscious wants to protect you. It's not your fault. It's just that part of you is being very meticulous about staying safe.

Imagine if you could reprogram your brain
and create an "Abundance Operating
System" that made the impossible seem
 You see, Quantum Physics tells us that everything in the universe is really just "pockets" of energy that flash on and off. What's more, all of these little pockets are mere potentials. 

Lets start cooking up a new you with these packets of pockets shall we? This is the kitchen where you create the recipes of success , where you place your order to the universe and it delivers .
There was no need to reinvent the wheel. There are experts and honest loving, wealthy consciousness people who have the skills, the answers YOU HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR.
My passion is to connect you to those people, programs, seminars and anything you choose to create. Now you will have those skills to do just that.

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Lets say the buck stops here. Everything and everyone who can add value to your life  has contributed here for the single purpose to help you find and achieve your dreams.

Goals, dreams  are simply vibrations you choose. Yes. You choose what you want to create . How do you do this?

Well, the truth is we are VIBRATIONAL TRANSMITTERS. But as important as   transmitters we  are  VIBRATIONAL  RECEIVERS. The reap what you so concept.Learning to use our transmitters correctly we must learn to resonate with what we want.

Quantum physics confers this . The process initiates always at the wish, the dream, the goal by our thoughts and beliefs of what is important to us.So what is import-ant. To you? The purpose of your being?

Guess what.  We are here for just one reason.
That reason is to be happy. To practice at our skills at being “creators”. That is our mission.

Why do you want  to be rich? Ask yourself why? Is it for the status, is it for the enjoyment of expensive homes, cars or whatever else money can buy? Why do you want that special someone in your life? Simple . You want to feel joy and happiness.

Yes you are a  creator  sent here to do just that ..create. You want these things because the question behind the question is that you are seeking only one thing. .Happiness.
So how does someone create to make the objects appear to have this happiness ? How does the inner manifest into the outer? You’re here now.That’s the first step.

What is that process, what does it take to get what you want in this lifetime? CHOICES AND AGREEMENTS YOU MAKE WITH YOURSELF by becoming
One with the goal, the dream the wish.

What prevents you are the CONVERSATIONS IN PROGRESS. Conversations you create through  your thoughts, words and feelings and  beliefs. Conversations from your cellular memory .  In the beginning there was the word and God breathed air into it. And it created.
Hey this is not joke . This is as for real as you can get. Remember this always.

You see you are a walking talking tower of Bable. Bable was the tower that was created initially for everyone with a common goal. Initially they all spoke the same language. But due to their lack of  acceptance of their own divinity   everyone started speaking in different tongues and could not understand each others.
YOU ARE STILL SPEAKING IN DIFFERENT TONGUES. In order for you to communicate with your creative mind that makes everything happen you must become aware what conversations are going on.

How do you determine what conversations are going on ? Which ones create what you want and which ones are preventing you from that?

Yes you are a  creator  sent here to do just that ..create. You want these things because the question behind the question is that you are seeking only one thing. .Happiness.

So how does someone create to make the objects appear to have this happiness. What is that process, what does it take to get what you want in this lifetime?
Easy. That easy. Again, You must become one with the goal, the dream the wish. You must vibrate at the same rate as the dream wish, goal.
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  3. Life is not what we learn it is what we ALLOW. Yes allow. I could help you , guide you to stick thoughts and words up your ying yang but unless your are willing we will get nowhere. There’s the train just sitting on the track. Ever feel this way..Ok you’ve read this far so you have. Next step: Your MIND- SET must be open to receive. How many stories have you heard of people, maybe yourself who achieve great wealth and lose it all. Why? Why do these fortunate few blow it? Yes your getting it…Lack of Allow- hence no actually long-term life changes.
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Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Meltdown to Magnificent.. In the beginning...Tho must Feng Shui thyself

 "If real is what you can feel, smell, taste and see, then 'real' is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain "
" I didn't say it would be easy, Neo. I just said it would be the truth."
We've survived by hiding from them, by running from them. But they are the gatekeepers. They are guarding all the doors, they are holding all the keys. Which means that sooner or later, someone is going to have to fight them. 
I stand here without fear because I remember. I remember that I am here not because of the path that lies before me but because of the path that lies behind me.  

In the beginning we were all created with the same nervous system that functions to this day in the same way. Lets start there.

Now this same nervous system has as its communication system  the liquid the goo of all our thoughts inner, outer and yes the thoughts of those around us or energetically picking up on the signal, our transmitters, our radio station.. FM 100 ME.

So now with that in mind, LOL and throughout our entire body and being are these embedded karmic emotions both known and unknown to us on a conscious and sub conscious level. Lets say many of us know this. True. But to know is one thing and to change this process or rather to upgrade YOU is another story.

Ok. So here is the true story above about the science factors. Now for the not yet known , which are getting proven everyday to be the real determinants of our karma. Consider we are here as image makers, creators. And in this creation every single cell in our body has all information.When we create these children within us, we give it human parentage.I used to think of them as children, my children I created, but some of these kids within us grow up and get pretty pesky, loud and inner speak violence at times.

So , since I AM, and have always been a solution based person I came up with some techniques that will sure fire, right as rain take you from meltdown to magnificent. 

Think of your life as a set of icons on your life computer. Everything you do and others in your life click on these icons. They trigger and run the program . That is when you realize you are out of control. They have pushed your buttons, your ICONS and run the program without your consent in your body.   "Oh no you didnt go there" ahahh. 
So if you have ever experienced this take heart it can change. It will take some effort on your part. Make yourself the priority. 

Start here: You must understand from the depths of you that you will need to go down the rabbit hole. I mean deep down. Never ever go down without a lifeline. You may get stuck in all your crap and never come out. That is why people have anxiety attacks. 

Process: The lifeline is to take responsibility for all your shit. I mean all of it. Until you do you are the porta potty. You own it you created it, these are your kids, grown , not grown, nasty mean thoughts kids, viciousness adult kids, autistic kids, sociopath kids and adults you gave human parentage too   Yes you got them all. So accept and forgive yourself. I mean not like a victim thing. You must be open to receive this . You will get to love this process just this part is an ouchy. Yes you sweet creator time to recreate.

Next face your I am sorry ass to a mirror and say to yourself, I LOVE YOU, I AM SORRY, PLEASE FORGIVE ME AND THANK YOU.  What that will do is to open you to receive Love of yourself ( you will need this big time), forgiveness for yourself, "I am sorry" will allow you to take responsibility for this, and last and most important GRATITUDE. The word gratitude is grace . It represents the grace of God. It releases you from human bondage because for the first time you are no longer a victim. You are grateful which magnetizes goodness, it transmits good frequency and allows you to receive higher more productive frequencies.You can also find an old picture of yourself and say this that works too.

Then you become the landlord of your home, your body mind. You have been the manager all along and did not even know it. This is your damn house and anybody, any energies that you allowed to live there within you are living there rent free inside you sucking you up. 
SOOOOOOOOOO like any good landlord of the slums.. EVICT THEM. Hand each and everyone you got, you can find, you can think of or have blamed for screwing up your life and give them a notice. 24 hr , 72 whatever you think you need. 

You then become the inner sheriff and enforce this. 
THIS IS VITAL: When ever you evict you must replace or a void is created that is set up with the same frequencies to attract all over gain. You will get the same type of inner slum tenant living within back unless you are fully aware of this.
The eviction notice must be kind, You are here in violation of keeping me form getting rich etc etc. you are here in violation for my being fat your are get the picture. . 

Now you must stop being a slum landlord and get better quality tenants. That will take work and  time but since you are the leasing manager of your life and you created the space they live in at least have some respect for the good they provided. There is always good. There is always benefit whether you see it now or later. 

Take for example the wife whose husband left her unexpectedly. She is and has been perilously angry, degraded. So she determines to get a makeover figuratively. She becomes so beautiful and that ex drove her to push herself further. To go back to school, to become all the things he thought she was not. Amazing. See know you are grateful for the son of a bitch and maybe you are not even calling him names.

Then you can practice every night with all your days events demagnetizing the ones you have that day. Change the story of how it happened. Every day you must do this before you rest. This stops you from creating naughty feelings and thoughts even if you have had a bad day. You see that bad day creates too and will attract more for your porta potty if you do not handle it like this. It attracts the frequencies like itself.

Lastly and most important as well, hug yourself. I mean hug yourself. Not others hugging you, hug yourself. Pat your self on the back, on the ass whatever you feel makes you feel rewarded. Do something good for yourself everyday just for the effort you are putting forth. Take a long hot bath. 
Then blank out. I mean go see a movie, a play, the opera, hiking , a concert. Do something fun. Or just lay in your PJ's loving yourself in your new home you created.

You are basically cleaning up your neuro network, resetting the secretions for optimum life function. Or to put in Feng Shui terms you are allowing chi to flow within, you are Feng shuing yourself. From ghetto to great. Yes baby it works. 

Next I will write about what you must do to ADD or subtract such as friends, jobs, situations and close their account to your emotional bank. Face it many of us have friends  or associate's that overdrafts us in one way or another. To them you will put them on notice of an overdraft. Since you set the rules to your life bank you can close their account up permanently or they will need to keep their account in your life in good standing. 

I have also found Nalalie Ledwel, Rikka Zimmerman, Neville Goddard and especially John Dupuy brainwave technology to make this process faster and very effective. Do check them out . Meditation is key to calming your mind, the monkey mind. 

John Dupuy of IAwake technologies will send you a free brain wave download to make the process easier. John said and I quote " The more coherent your entire system, the easier it is to cut through mental and emotional chaos. It can be like having your whole energetic system focused like a laser beam. The highly coherent biofield signals create a field that naturally attracts higher order and complexity out of chaos. " Meditation practice is like an emotional and spiritual roto-rooter."

I will write more about this but start here. 

Tuesday, March 5, 2013


Is there a Mad Hatter in your life?
The Mad hatters, we have all met them, lived with them, worked with them and just want to get away from them. You know the ones that distract you from your life. It’s like they do not have a real life of their own. “Look at me, pay attention to me types.” Infested with the Narcissistic virus “you are now captured, clinging like the dingle berry. Good grief, it has got to stop. 

How to recognize if you have one or several of these wacko bunnies messing with you in your enviromenet. The signs are all around. You are normally punctual, they make you late. You pay your bills on time, they don't  They lie, make excuses and smear your life. Just what the hell is wrong with this picture? But you can’t quite put your finger on it. Like a bad meal that upsets your stomach but you cannot remember what you ate that did it. That is Mad-Hatter

The Mad-hatters Types
The micro managing boss that looks for the spec of evidence on your desk that you were not giving every minute of your breathing to work there LOL. Oh please explain to me why you took such a long potty break? Years ago I came real close to describing just why I had the runs every time I looked at my micro boss and how they could benefit the world and flush themselves down the toilet.  

Or the boyfriend who drags you down the rabbit hole so many times you’re like on this frickin roller coaster up and down emotionally, sexually and spiritually. That was fun at first. Then you wake up feeling addicted to them. This one is the tricky one to get away from. They are sooo good at “THAT” you wish they could just keep their mouth shut while you are in the delight of the act. Or better yet offer them a sock. I did once. I said “baby you know I am a little kinky, how about I put a sock in your mouth that really excites me” ahah the idiot bought it. !!!

Let’s not miss the one child who causes so much drama in your life you wonder if you had remembered to change their poopy diapers when they were babies. This is a rough one as there are so many questions you ask yourself. You beat your sweet brain delving like hawks fishing in the ocean “why, what did I do that they are pulling my mommy strings? Why me? Why don’t they push someone else’s strings?
You try to point just what the hell is wrong with the picture but can’t quite put your finger on it. This one is best handled like I did. Say in as pleasant a voice (yes I know you want to tell them off but don’t) say “honey in all fairness to my other children, yes I have other children remember your other brothers and sisters I cannot devote my entire life paying attention to mostly you,” that is not fair , I have other kids too . That line works pretty good.

Or the drama roommate. I call them affectionately “Draino.”The kind that manipulates you. They are infested with the Narcissistic virus and every moment of your waking life is to serve >>> them. Yes they ask you for advice. You offer, they totally ignore what you said. When it comes to paying the bills you are politely texting, calling trying to be responsible and they pull you down the rabbit hole. You’re like “ Wow do I need to help you be an adult?”
Be careful this is a nasty Mad Hatter. Difficult to get rid of but you have to. They force you to smudge your house and yourself over and over . They appear as Mad hatters but they are MAD HATERS. The victim lack of gratitude stench is all over them.  The world owes them. You just happen to be their world at the moment.  You have to transition these types out of your life. You can’t just get rid of them they are karma Carpet Baggers. In no way would I recommend doing the Madam Dufarge from the Tale of two Cities  “Guillotine , guillotine  off with their  heads . This will just bring another in your life. The best way to fight their virus is gratitude. Say thank you, I appreciate the karmic lesson. Or better yet pray for their happiness “away from you.”  Chant that they find their perfect roommate that is happy to eat their needy soup. You do not want another bowl. No thank you.

I am fortunate enough to have a new roommate now that brings her big girl panties with her. Yippie  

My King Arthur and I did this ping pong thing at first. I must confess I was so busy I really could not answer his calls some times. I would actually disconnect my phone. OR blow heavily into it like there was static. Shit, one time I actually carried a paper bag and crunched it as we were speaking on the cell. “Honey I can’t hear you. Baby what did you say?” Hahah I can be such an eccentric independent bitch to a fault. He is just a passionate guy. I said once that the only thing I wanted clinging to me is my panties. He actually saw through all my crap and said to me point blank” Mama, you can plug your cell phone up your ass to make sure it is charged from now on.” Opps busted. He is now my forever bunny honey.

Good luck with all this.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

The Prize Fighter

Hurt? Be the Prize fighter

Have you thought that right after a break up, a divorce, an abandoned situation or a he/she just left me for no reason how vulnerable that makes you?
Thinking or maybe not, acting out is more likely what will happen next. How not to be rebound food. 

So you have been dumped, lost your love, your job or whatever then what happens next?

Something very vital must happen if you are to heal and heal sufficiently. To not rebound or take your drama baggage frequency and create another relationship like the one you had means being good to yourself now more than ever. It starts with an understanding that your are now in the ring . You must fight to get up, fight to make it work, fight to keep up your pretend for now self esteem in tact.

The Prize fighter spends all his/her life training and after a win or loss gathers themselves up and does it again . You are the same, no need to throw yourself under the buss. Trust me there will be others who with very little motivation are happy to oblige you. Start your new life with your middle finger waiting for them. 

Most important of all these things  is you must be kind to yourself, and not blaming yourself or judging that will keep you out of the victim triangle. Another vital survival tool is to respect time. You will recover, you were born without this person and you survived just fine before they were in your life. 

Expectations: Don't expect to get in the ring and win the first fight. That will take time. But by all means do get in the ring. Drop..Stop and drop you are not ready to win the fight you may get knocked out after a few rounds. But do get in the ring. You may only go a few rounds. be your corner manager, know when to ring the bell. retreat and fight again. You can do it. I promise

Now you can and must  become your own hero.